GSPC EM Ministry
March 2, 2008
Jane Kim’s Poemony
Jane explains her poemony (Poem + Testimony = Poemony) in the beginning and starts her poemony at 2:30.
Complaints of life’s cruelty,
the unjust punishments,
the misunderstood actions,
the betrayals of loved ones.
Patched-up
broken down
strained-away relationships.
The anger
the bottled-bitter emotions
as a result to pre-meditated actions.
My used-up road,
my so called ‘life’
entailed with taled just like yours;
filled with a single-parent
who was misused, abused, confused,
and helpless.
Worried of surviving yet another tomorrow
mistrust of provided safety.
A long road of uncertainty.
And abandoned family
society’s definition to fit for poverty
Getting older day by day,
more aware of my upbrining,
noticing my family’s lacking-
I made an attempt to disguise my somber mood
to wear a mask
to fit in
to force myself to be like that somebody else
who had the family
who had the money
who had the grades.
Gradually falling into an invisible abyss
I was becoming someone who I have learned to hate
Rebelling against my own nature
Letting go of God’s hands,
Sick of the routine,
Tired of the mundane.
I fetched for my own desires,
I have always heard the not-so-new news of salvation
of Christ’s resurrection.
Thinking of myself above all that
I shook it off;
trying to ignore
attempting to avoid
an overdue transformation.
I knew all the right answers
I knew the road I chose was wrong
I knew of the devil’s attempt to lure.
But my heart shallow and depressed,
it longed to express its emptiness
to someone who has always impressed
me with His wisdom and consistency;
Doubtful
Fearful
I probed, I questioned, I yearned for more
my soul was thirsty,
I knew it was time
to admit that this isn’t mine,
to submit to God’s will
so on my knees I fell
I shut myself up;
all the doubts once creeping in-
I allowed Christ into my heart
One simple prayer
erased all my sins,
one simple moment of silence
brought me to God’s grace.
For once I can proclaim
that I am free;
I have crossed the border line
drawn out for me,
I have unlimited the limited,
I made a choice
and I am protected,
I am not a misfit in His eyes,
I am pure and forgiven.
- Jane Kim
